massage therapy [F]

I commented on a post recently talking about memory repression for sexual abuse. Another person DMed me saying that as a massage therapist, they’ve seen clients gather lost memories while massaging certain body parts.

All I can think of now is stripping naked, getting a massage, and the therapist slowly working their way to massaging my pussy. I’ve been wondering if that would help bring back memories of abuse and send me into a crazy state of revictimization and pleasure.

the baseball field [F]

When I was a senior in high school (18 years old), I worked in a sub shop. This guy that went to school with me also worked there. We got scheduled a lot together, and as time went on we got more flirty. Eventually we traded numbers and started texting, and then sexting lol.

After this, work got a lot more fun. He’d slap my ass as he would go by me, grab my hips if he was squeezing behind me in a tight space, and would make out with me in the back when there weren’t any customers there. One day he asked if I wanted to hang out after we got off, and I agreed.

After closing up the shop, we got in his car and started talking about where to hang out. Neither of us could hang at our house, so we just sat there talking awhile. Eventually he said “I have an idea of where we can hang” and when I asked him where, he just said “you’ll see.”

sleazy hotel [F]

After my first long term boyfriend and I broke up, I had a huge slut phase. I met a majority of the guys I fucked on tinder, and one of my first matches was Seth. I was 19 at the time and he was 22. He lived out of state and was in town for a week for work. After messaging and sending some nudes back and forth, he invited me to come to his hotel. I obviously knew we were going to fuck, and I was pretty nervous. This was the first guy I fucked after losing my virginity to my ex. I freshened up and packed my bag. On the drive there, I smoked a joint to ease my anxiety a bit.

Snapchat [F]

Last summer I matched with a boy on tinder that was a grade below me and automatically added him on Snapchat. I was really horny that night and got wine drunk by myself. I was hoping I could get him to come over to fuck me that night, but he was road tripping home from a vacation with his dad. I sent him a few playful nudes and he asked for more for entertainment for his drive home. He was good at sexting and helping me get off so I kept sending him more.

Eventually it led to me sending him full videos of me fucking myself with my dildo and vibrator. He told me he thought his dad had looked over and seen him watching one of my videos. That turned me on even more, thinking about his dad looking over and wanting what his son is getting.

He did end up coming over to fuck me once, but it was really bad hahaha. I think he might’ve been a virgin and was a sweaty mess which was disappointing. I ghosted him after that, but still get off thinking about our Snapchat fun.

the drive home [F]

When I was 19 and dating one of my old boyfriends, we went to his older sisters wedding. He was 21 by then so come the reception, he was buying and sneaking me drinks. I had probably 3-4 drinks and was feeling pretty tipsy by the end of the night. Alcohol always goes right to my pussy and makes it so wet, so I was really horny. I kept sneak feeling his dick under the dinner table throughout the night and he would slide his hands up my thighs, teasing me. When we finally left, I was so excited to fuck. It was an hour drive home and I definitely knew I couldn’t wait.

About 15 minutes in. I leaned over and kissed his neck and then pulled my dress above my waist and spread my legs. I started rubbing my thighs and just staring at my boyfriend, breathing heavy. He kept looking back n forth from the road to me lol and I started rubbing my pussy. Shortly after he reached over and pulled my underwear down and started slowly playing with my clit. My adrenaline was rushing and though it was dark, I was nervous that anyone driving past could see my pussy on display and me losing control of my body. I was moaning so much and it made me feel so slutty but it was really fun.

I almost passed out from anal [F]

Last night I pregamed at my apartment with some girl friends and then walked to the club (I live downtown). Once we got there, we got all got a shot and I also got a tequila sunrise. We went to the dance floor and started dancing, grinding on each other, and having a good time.

I started making eye contact with this guy nearby a lot. He was with friends too so after telling my friends, my group casually made our way near them and started dancing with them. My friends and I started grinding on each other again and then the guy I had my eyes on pulled my waist into his so I started grinding on him. I could feel his dick starting to get hard and since alcohol goes straight to my pussy, I wanted him bad. He took me to the bar and bought me another drink, which I didn’t need as I was already really drunk.

Snapchat fun [F]

Last summer after my boyfriend and I broke up, I had a huge slut phase. I was fucking multiple guys a week and sending out nudes like nobody’s business.

I matched on tinder with a boy that was a grade below me and added him on Snapchat. I was really horny that night and got wine drunk by myself. I was hoping I could get him to come over to fuck me that night, but he was road tripping home from a vacation with his dad. I sent him a few playful nudes and he asked for more for entertainment for his drive home. He was good at sexting and helping me get off so I kept sending him more and more.

Eventually it led to me sending him full videos of me fucking myself with my dildo and vibrator. He told me he thought his dad had looked over and seen him watching one of my videos. That turned me on even more, thinking about a dad looking over and wanting what his son is getting.

the drive home [F]

When I was 19 and dating one of my old boyfriends, we went to his older sisters wedding. He was 21 by then so come the reception, he was buying and sneaking me drinks. I had probably 3-4 drinks and was feeling pretty tipsy by the end of the night. Alcohol always goes right to my pussy and makes it so wet, so I was really horny. I kept sneak feeling his dick under the dinner table throughout the night and he would slide his hands up my thighs, teasing me. When we finally left, I was so excited to fuck. It was an hour drive home and I definitely knew I couldn’t wait.

About 15 minutes in. I leaned over and kissed his neck and then pulled my dress above my waist and spread my legs. I started rubbing my thighs and just staring at my boyfriend, breathing heavy. He kept looking back n forth from the road to me lol and I started rubbing my pussy. Shortly after he reached over and pulled my underwear down and started slowly playing with my clit. My adrenaline was rushing and though it was dark, I was nervous that anyone driving past could see my pussy on display and me losing control of my body. I was moaning so much and it made me feel so slutty but it was really fun.

hiking [F]

I love hiking in the spring and summer and find myself deep in the woods clearing my head or smoking a j with friends. Early this summer, I decided to take my boyfriend on a hike with me. We were just walking and talking and hadn’t seen anyone else on the trail in awhile. I stared at him deeply and seductively and he easily caught on.

We started making out and he was squeezing my ass. He asked if I wanted to fuck and I wanted to but was nervous of being caught. We looked around for a good spot for probably about 5 minutes before we decided on a wide tree that covered us from people coming towards us. From there he quickly pulled my pants down, spit on his dick, and shoved it in me.

The force from his dick being shoved in me knocked me over a bit so I held my hands out on the tree holding myself up. He fucked me really hard and probably only lasted like 2 minutes because of the adrenaline. He pulled out and came on a pile of leaves lol. My hands hurt pretty badly from them being pressed hard against the tree, but my pussy felt great so it was easy to forget.

I took a Mormons virginity [F]

Sooooo this is kind of an awkward story lol. I was pretty innocent in high school but after I graduated I fucked multiple boys from my class. I used to be good friends with these two Mormon brothers and I had a crush on the older brother for yearssss and he knew, but wasn’t allowed to date at that age because it went against his religion. So when we matched on tinder after we graduated, I was pretty surprised.

He took me out to a really nice Italian restaurant and then we went back to my place to watch a movie. One thing lead to another and soon enough I was riding his dick while he sat on my desk chair. He lasted a long time and honestly wore me out, changing positions multiple times and making my pussy sore. He finally came and after we just laid in bed cuddling and having pillow talk. He asked how it was for me and I said great and asked the same. He said “I think it was good” kinda in a questionable way and I was like uhhhh what do you mean. He then said “that was my first time, you didn’t know?”