I will never [f]orget how [m]y text buddy taught me how to like dicks

Right on start I should say that nature did absolutely everything to make me not like a dicks in general. Overall, I have absolutely nothing against it! I like them. I could have billions sex toys but I would still replace them with a dick in a second.
Buuuut I really suck at a blowjob…

Why? There is several reasons.
Firstly, I am demisexual. The random porn and things around it do nothing to me. I could watch people fuck each other and I would just giggle over the silly dialogues. So whenever happened that somebody wanted to impress me (not like I asked) and sent me d-pic. I was just “why”?
Well…to be fair, d-pics actually awoke some reaction in me. And that’s the point number two. I am extremely shy. So whenever I hear or see something naughty I actually panic, get all red and laugh. So if there is some explicit sex scene in the show I am covering my nose and mouth with a blanket, giggle out of panic and at the same time focusing on some pretty detail like lingerie or questioning if such position would be actually comfortable. Honestly I am not even able to have sex conversation in the real life. I can’t even say dick in my own language aloud. There are even words I can’t even write in English how vulgar they sound to me.

[F]Cute girls are supposed to have a small toys, right?

Did you ever managed to discover something just by accident? Something what looked scary but eventually turns out very nice?
Well…let me tell you my story.

Everything started with me wanting a new toy. I already have two and I enjoy them a lot. Buuuut I just really wanted to have one with suction cup. The idea of being able to play with myself “hands free” was very appealing to me. Especially since I seriously love to be on all 4. It just must be something I must have in my arsenal, right?

Well, I made some research, and as responsible girl I am, I tried to get the best toy for the best price. I was looking for something in cute color and since I am not scared of vibes anymore (haha, I should write about that as well) I bought nice red vibrator with suction cup in narrow shape with just small bulk on the top. Yunno, something what will not destroy me if I push too hard, not a fan of pointy dildos.

[F] Girls are supposed to be cute, right?!

Or at least I thought so for a really long time. Probably it has to do with my young years when I acted more like practical, reckless boyish girl. But during university something switched in me and I wanted to be a real woman. I started to wear a dresses and skirts at all cost. Slowly adding other shoes than just sneakers and little bit of make up. If you told me 5 years ago that I will end up with heels and short tight skirt as I wear today, that girl would definitely laugh and call you crazy.
But here I am. All feminine and cute like piece of strawberry cake. I refuse to be that wild monkey wearing the baggy jeans even in the hottest summer anymore.

And I thought guys likes me like that more as well.