I’m bound in a deep squatting position. My butt touching the edge of the black high heels I’m wearing I’m focused on holding balance while wiggling so the ropes around my thighs and shins shift a little. My arms are tied behind my back, making it even harder to balance but I’m trying to keep proper posture.
A position that finally gets me into the right mindset that night. I had been struggling to concentrate on my tasks and not starting to giggle whenever I couldn’t fulfill one to Sir’s content. A giggling that sometimes escapes when I feel frustrated with a given task or Sir destroys work I’ve done already that he isn’t satisfied with.
My bare pussy exposed and wet already I’m waiting for Sir’s next move. My gaze is fixed on a spot on the floor in front of me so I won’t look at him directly, which I’m forbidden to do until the end of the play session. From the corner of my eyes I see Sir picking up my dildo. The dildo I have been using either with lube or a condom so it would slide in easier during solo play time. Standing in front of me Sir is holding the dildo to my mouth. I instinctively open my mouth, ready to suck on it. Sir lets me lick the tip, and then the whole thing, turning it so I can make it wet all over. He then shoves the Dildo into my mouth, slowly but continuously until I can feel it at the back of my throat. I know he wants me to take it deeper so I try to relax. I feel my eyes starting to water when he gives the dildo another small push and then my throat clenching around it. Focused on not gagging on it too badly I hear him say the words that send shivers down my spine every time.
‘Good girl!’
There’s a hint of surprise in his tone.
‘So you really have been practicing, huh?’, he asks while pulling the dildo out of my mouth. I nod, while coughing slightly and then remember to answer properly.
‘Yes, Sir!’, I answer with a tiny smirk on my face.
‘Open up!’ I open my mouth and the dildo goes in again. Sir starts to fuck my mouth with the dildo, making me gag hard so tears trickle down my cheeks. It goes back down my throat and Sir holds it there until I start moving my head in a ‘No’-motion.
I still try to regain my balance and breathing heavily, when suddenly Sir is on the floor next to me.
‘I guess we won’t need any lube after all.’, he says while rubbing the drool that runs down my chin all over my face.
I feel the tip of the dildo at my pussy. I can’t help but moan loudly when Sir pushes it in and I take it deep with that first push. In the squatting position it seems like I can feel the dildo tickling my lower belly. A wave of warmth moves through my whole body. I try to stay upright while getting fucked hard, the dildo sliding in and out of my pussy with just a tiny bit of fraction making it tingle with a touch of pleasurable pain. Sir keeps fucking me while his other hand is grabbing my hair, making me hold position. The angle is just perfectly right and I can quickly feel the orgasm building up.
‘Sir, may I please come?’, I mumble under my breath. Repeating the words louder between moans.
‘Yes!’
The orgasm ripples through my body, making my thighs tremble and leaving me breathe heavily.
The next thing I know, I’m greedily licking my own pussy juice of the dildo.
‘That’s my good little slut!’, Sir says while patting my head. ‘Do you think you can deepthroat my cock like you did the dildo?’
‘I don’t think so, Sir’, I admit, not wanting to dissapoint.
‘Why is that?’
‘Because it’s bigger and wider!’, I answer.
‘You should keep practicing then!’
I nod and try licking the dildo that Sir is still holding.
‘There you go! Good girl.’ The shivers again.
He pushes the dildo to the back of my mouth holding it there at that sensitive spot. I gag and wiggle and it’s in my throat again. I struggle to hold it there longer than before, even trying to take it deeper and thinking about how it would feel to do the same with Sir’s cock. Drool dripping down my chin I keep my mouth open when the dildo is pulled out, ready to take it again.
I happily let Sir help me practice a couple more times, before he decides it’s enough for the day.
‘I’m proud of you, baby!’ he says making my heart beat a little faster.
Author: SilkAndFlame
A kinky diary – Orgasm denial update [F] [bdsm] [Bi]
5 days into edging and being denied to orgasm my pussy is constantly wet and it feels like it’s throbbing all the time. I keep being rembered of my punishment over and over again by this tingly ache between my legs. And I crave being stretched and filled by Sir’s cock even more than usual, especially today where he made me wear my kegels and a plug at the same time for a few hours. I’m desperately craving release but I really want to see this through. If I’m taking especially good care of him in the coming weeks and being a good sub he might reduce the duration of the punishment. He granted me a day (it’s March 7th now) after I got all dolled up for him and showed him all my stripper moves yesterday evening – dancing and teasing him.
More updates to come!
A kinky diary – Orgasm Denial [F] [MF] [bdsm] [Dominance]
After having so much fun doing kinky advent and writing about it I was excited about my Dom’s idea to keep somewhat of a kinky journal, to write about play sessions, experiences and thoughts. And of course with idea I mean my Dom’s order. I am to ask him if I should write an entry after every session we have.
Just let me say…I forgot to ask. Not once but a couple of times by now. I didn’t really feel like writing in the last weeks and so I decided to ignore this new rule – resulting in a whole new type of punishment. I’m now denied orgasms.
For the next six weeks I’m not allowed to come. We have been incorporating orgasm control in our play already with me having to ask for permission to come, but normally I was always allowed to in the end. Now Sir makes me edge on my own for a given number of times a day or he is getting me to the point where I normally ask for permission and then denies me to come. Don’t get me wrong, I’m into edging…but six weeks?! Since I’m able to orgasm pretty easily I’m not even sure I’ll be able to hold it back even if I wanted to if he decides to use a vibrator or wand on me.
The edging part is going OK so far (it’s only day 2 though ?) but not being allowed to come while we were having sex last night got me really frustrated. Especially because it wasn’t really a ‘kinky fuck’ per se but the only thing that made it so was the denial part.
More updates to come (pun intended!) on how well I fare in taking this punishment and I guess more regular diary keeping as well…
Kinky Advent 24/24 [F] [Bi] [bdsm]
I got a collar for Christmas! Or rather a promise for one that my Dom and I will be choosing together. I’m still a little overwhelmed by the thought of finally being able to wear a visible sign for the connection me and my Dom are sharing, that this little advent adventure definitely helped to enhance.
I have to admit the last couple of weeks were intense, with a good measure of fun and excitement but also nervousness and uncertainty at some points. And let’s not forget about the constant arousal and horniness. ?
Seeing how much time, devotion, creativity and consideration went into creating this advent calendar I wasn’t sure I would be able to fulfill all the tasks to my Dom’s full satisfaction – which of course turned out to be true. As some of the assignments were surely a bit harder for me or took more effort than others my Dom seemed more disappointed when I just let some details slip, not posting on time or tried to negotiate demands and bypass some of the regulations. The punishments I got for the collected slips are something that I definitely will remember. As a masochist who can take her fair share of pain without flinching my Dom managed to really set the tone for the punishment spankings and whippings and got me into a mindset where I was really feeling I needed to be disciplined and atone for not following the rules. And being ordered to assume some of the mentioned positions truly helped with that.
The effect the position practice had on me was fascinating although the thought of position training was always very intriguing to me. Picturing myself in front of my Dom offering myself to him in a position like ‘Nadu’ really made me feel like I could truly submit to him despite my rebellious and bratty nature. That’s something I would love to explore more and incorporate in our future play sessions.
The most fun was had with the wax play, the body writing and the stripping in the changing room including that posting pictures of the fulfilled tasks totally caters to my exhibitionistic side. I also really enjoyed the dress regulations although I was shy to try it at first.
Something I’m very grateful for is that I got back to writing regularly. A side effect I want to keep and use in other parts of my life.
I’m so happy about how things turned out and also proud of myself for pushing some of my limits especially in the sense of wanting to be more obedient and submit more often than not.
Kinky Advent 23/24 [F] [Bi] [bdsm]
Kneeling on the floor practicing today’s position sent little shivers down my spine thinking about what this addition to the repertoire could possibly entail. ‘Collar me’ is a kneeling position, legs spread apart, butt resting on the heels. The arms are lifted, hands holding the hair up behind the head so the neck is presented. Intensity 8/10, as I can’t stop thinking about kneeling like this in front of my Dom someday.
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Kinky Advent 22/24 [F] [Bi] [bdsm]
Yesterday’s self-tie fun nearly drove me crazy. It felt like I was constantly wet and the rope rubbing against my pussy, especially while sitting down and getting back up, was almost feeling unbearable at the end of the night. Wearing the rope obviously left me craving more so the play session with my Dom that followed was inevitable. A good impact play always gets me but after the constant stimulation the scene was even more intense and rewarding.
But let’s get to today’s assignment: changing my WhatsApp profile pic to one of the photos I posted on my kinky insta and keep it for two hours. Funnily after the last 21 days this wasn’t even that much of a challenge anymore and only got me 2 comments of my contacts. So for intensity it’s a 5/10 today.
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Kinky Advent 21/24 [F] [Bi] [bdsm]
Today’s task was to do a little Shibari self tie and wear the rope under my clothing for the whole day. I’m especially looking forward to tonight’s Christmas party I’m attending with my Dom. I perfectly concealed the rope with my clothing, so only him and me will know I’m having rope rubbing against my pussy for the whole night. Sooo wet already ? Let’s see how long I can take it. No intensity rating tonight because it’s just pure fun!
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Kinky advent 20/24 [F] [Bi] [bdsm]
Another slave/sub position today.’Sexdoll’ is a floor position where the sub lays flat on the floor, face upward, arms bend so the open palms rest on the floor at shoulder height. Legs are bent and spread to shoulder width. Seeing the photo I took to send to my Dom I truly felt objectified, looking like a proper fuckdoll. Might be it’s only the slightly creepy looking pic, but this position was definitely the hardest one to practice. On the other hand I’m excited to see how I feel about it incorporated in a play session. 9/10 for today’s intensity. Seems like the position practice get’s to me the most.
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Kinky Advent 19/24
For today I had to send a sexy, revealing selfie to one of my contacts who never got a sexy or nude selfie from me before. After discussing about how revealing it should be and pondering who to send it to I ended up sending two pics to two different contacts – why overthink it ? I am to send a screenshot of the conversation that follows to my son, stating to the contacts that I only send it by accident. Let’s see how this plays out.
It’s a 7/10 in intensity because it really gave me something to ruminate over.
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Kinky advent 18/24 [F] [Bi] [bdsm]
Assignment number 18 was to strip down naked in a fitting room of a clothing store and masturbate. The area in front of the fitting rooms was so crowded and noisy that I couldn’t even come, which is a rare thing for me, although I was very much turned on by watching myself in all the mirrors. Isn’t it the most wonderful time of the year? ? My dom managed to get me all hot and bothered again, without even being there ? 5/10 for this task because I couldn’t be bothered with the thought of being seen through a gap in the curtain because I was trying so hard to make myself come.
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