Private Rapeseed and the Living Daylights [MF] [psychological thriller]

My psychiatrist crossed her legs tapping a silver pen against her notepad before responding: “Have you ever given any thought to the possibility your relationship with Baristan is a reverie born of the desire to punish your racist father?”

“Tsss,” I hissed, “I don’t care about my dad enough to let him influence my dating life.”

“But Rose,” she shifted slightly sideways in her seat keeping her shoulders squared at me, she knew she’d struck a nerve, “Let me ask the question from a different standpoint: What about thoughts to the possibility that *Baristan’s* motivation is racist prejudice, and it’s fueling an unhealthy sexual fetish for him with you?”

I shrugged. “Sounds like everyone’s screwed up.”

“I only ask because you told me it was a blond character in sexual comics that Barsitan compared you to when you both first met”—she flipped back her notes several pages reading intently—”And that he’s in fact nicknamed you after this character, *Carmen*.”

Jesus Christ already. “Yes,” I said, “I told him to stop calling me that and he has. Like weeks ago.”

“Does he still read them? The Carmen comics depicting sexual violence?”

Land of Lincoln, a Butcher’s Tale. Part I. [old-school story-based erotica]

If you’ve been following me over the past few years, you know I talk a lot about homeless people and their difficulty surviving this society. So when he caught me by the wrist that had just placed charity in his cup, I didn’t react like most would.

See, when I was a lad, my father took me to Sumatra to see Orangoutangs before they went extinct in the wild. When we found one, our guide placed a ripe banana in my hand to give it, which the ape gladly took, but also grabbed my wrist. It was a dangerous situation, because orangoutang grip and strength is about ten-fold that of a typical adult human. And like my lesson then, I didn’t yank, didn’t talk, or panic. I lowered my eyes, went limp, and smiled cautiously.

“You will be spared,” the homeless man said, and let go, disappearing back under his oversized hoodie.

An odd thing to say, *But will you be spared?,* I thought to myself, then finished the next three blocks at Matsui’s front door.