Previously:
https://redd.it/6makte
tl;dr my first “real” boyfriend Jason told me he was interested in me with other guys and, in particular, my friend Tom.
I had been thinking a lot about the very intriguing blowjob I had given Jason. Or, rather, the intriguing talk during. Many different, sometimes contradictory thoughts were going through my head. Especially at school when spending time with Tom.
We still hung out, but I’m sure I was being a bit weird. My mind would drift to what Jason and I had talked about — sucking Tom off. I was still very interested in the idea. But Jason and I hadn’t talked about it since. I didn’t know if he was really interested in it or if it was the heat of the moment. Was it really ok that I was thinking about Tom that way? I had gotten myself off a few times thinking about it. Would Jason be upset or turned on that I had been making myself cum with an image of Tom in my head?