Might be kinda lame but thought I’d share. Three days ago I left my phone on the couch and my mom saw a text pop up that said something like “when is my turn to fuck you”. Craaaazy for her to see. I think/assume it was from some random old guy I don’t even know IRL. I couldn’t tell my mom that the text doesn’t mean anything real. She got mad and deadass started going through my stuff. She didn’t find anything other than some of my pastel goth stuff that I used to wear to school (like collars and garter belts from amazon). She said I can’t “keep dressing like this” and she’s keeping my phone for a full god damn fucking week. I said I’m 18 and she was like “barely” (18 is 18 dumb dummy dum dum). Soooo yesterday out of bordem/maybe revenge I guess, I cut up my non-prom dress to make it real thirsty and think I might maybe go somewhere safe wearing it (a Walmart far away from where I live?). It’s hard to keep it on right because I cut it to be a lot of straps and have underboob so I low-key have to use some/a bunch of tape lol (these pasties hurt). It’s more “suggestive” than anything I’ve ever worn outside but it would be a fun pic (can post here). I can have a friend go with me. Have you ever done something like this?
Author: SecretLewdGirl
I just failed at trying to have a threesome. Sad day. [FMM]
So, I’ve kinda sorta really really wanted to have a threesome. I haven’t done much sexually (yet) and I dunno if I should download an app or something to find people because the method I tried high key failed.
Last night I was texting a guy from school and he said he doesn’t look at porn, that the industry is toxic. I sent him a pic of myself being sorta dumb + thotty (an upskirt) and he responded with an “lol wut?”. I asked him if he’s going to save my pic and he said “yeah” so I sent him a pic of me wearing fuck me pasties. He switched to being pervy and texted like “you want to get fucked?” and after about 100 more texts he admitted that he was going to beat off to me and that we’d ‘hang out’ on Monday. I thought cool this guy is 100% down. Then kinda that same night and the next day my friend’s ex was liking my pics and dm’ed me “how come we never hooked up”? I thought ‘ohhhh I have a good idea’ (I know I’m duuuumb) I texted the guy from school something like “I forgot that I made plans to smash with an old friend on monday but I don’t want to break our plans. come fuck me at the same time?”. Somehow in my lil perv brain that made sense. He responded “nope”. So sad. I don’t think I’ll ever find 2 guys to have a 3some with IRL.
My friend’s dad sent me pervy dms, not sure if I should tell her [MF]
So, I’ve been thinking about making an onlyfans (still a lil too scared). I’ve only told two people, one being my friend who helped me take pics. I don’t know how/if he found out but almost a week ago her dad dm’ed saying “can’t believe you’re all grown up” and for my “big 18” he can take me to pick something out. I was really really dumb and said “like a sugar daddy?” and he responded “if you’re a good girl”. I didn’t think/know what to say so I wrote a <3. I didn’t mean to lead him on. He’s married. I wanted to tell my friend but I kinda feel like she’ll be mad at me. I ignored it and then two days later he sent me a text (suuuuuper weird) asking what I’m up to and that “no one is home”. I told him I’m playing Animal Crossing (I didn’t know what to say, I wasn’t even playing it I just made it up). He said “that’s cute send me a pic”. Now, this is where I got really stupid. I’d been taking lewd pics and I can’t show anyone I know, but I’ve sorta been really, really wanting to, and I have them on my phone and I kinda love them (I know that sounds bad) so I thought about it for like 10 seconds and KNEW I shouldn’t do it but I sent one where my t-shirt says “be a slut do whatever you want”. As soon as a I sent it I felt sick. He didn’t respond for like 30 min and I looked up how to unsend a text. Then he texted “good girl” and “that’s what I wanted”. Now he wants me to get a covid test and stay with him at a hotel on the 26th and he Venmo’d me $200 to “buy something cute”. I told him I’ve only been with three guys so I’m not sure what I’m doing. He said “that’s ok”. And ugh, I wanted him to respond with what he expects me to do. I’m scared/guilty feeling/flattered/super turned on/scared