This specific story starts when I was starting college. I went to high school in a small suburban town and was well known and liked in my town. In the same town, I used to go to church periodically with my parents. I wasn’t particularly religious or anything, but I enjoyed going because I had friends there and we used to hang out after. Also, who doesn’t love messing around with Christian girls rebelling against their parents.
The transition from high school to college was blunt. I went from knowing everyone and knowing i was liked by everyone to not knowing anyone. I was tall, lanky and kind of awkward, basically your typical incoming freshman. My “jock” credits from my small town high school had not transferred over to the big state college and I felt a little out of place. I still had big dreams and I was naive enough to think I can fulfill them. I wanted to be a doctor so I signed up for all pre-med classes. I subscribed to a bunch of medicine podcasts and I downloaded some apps. Bright-eyed and bushy tailed, I walked into a biology lecture with 200+ people, all thinking they can be doctors.