Kinda long, sorry!
Some boring context: I love my bf but things are complicated. We have been together since I was 14 and he was 15, and that was almost 9 years ago. Needless to say, I had no experience with relationships or sex except for with him. I was always really skinny as a teen and my bf was too, we were kinda nerdy and we were in love when we were just kids. Things have changed in the last few years though. It’s like now in the last couple years i have sort of blossomed physically, my braces came off and I developed curves and my body transformed, and I think it makes my bf uncomfortable. I like the attention I get from guys at school and stuff like that, even though I never acted on it before, but I have to admit it’s strange because I never used to get any attention from guys before… at all! Now I admit it does excite me when guys flirt with me. I know it’s wrong but I guess I’ve changed and I like the changes :). He isn’t really the same guy either: kinda chubby now and not in shape, doesn’t try, eats really bad food, and as for myself I work hard on my body to stay fit. I try to cook good meals for him but he snacks all night long. He also doesn’t work, stays home and smokes pot most of the time, makes some money from fixing computers and selling small amounts of weed but otherwise he isn’t really doing much with his life. I’m a junior in college and I work 20-30 hours a week to make ends meet for both of us and it’s exhausting. So in a way we are drifting apart and we both know it. The worst part of our relationship is that he won’t talk to me about anything anymore, he is depressed, and whenever I try to talk about things he gets angry. So for the past two years or so I’ve been feeling kinda down about us.