A strange pleasure in humiliation

She was a very good friend of mine. Or so I thought. She was very decent and mild in behaviour. I talked to her quite often. Had a good laugh together every now and then. And also shared things some of the things of my personal life. Anyway, so one day I opened a chathead on messenger to talk to her. I wanted to start with a meme. So I tapped on the gallery icon at the bottom of the chatbox. But sad thing is, I tapped it twice. So obviously the most recent photo in my gallery was sent. And that photo unlocked the door to my misfortune.

Apparently, That was my nude photo that I took to check how sexy I looked naked. I simply shouldn’t have opened the chathead before I finished moving the picture in a hidden folder picture. I shouldn’t even have taken the picture in the first place. Damn ittttt!!!!!!

“Sorry, sorry. I am extremely sorry!!!!! You know I didn’t mean to. It was just a mistake. It was just a mistake. Ignore this shit. And pls delete it”

“Calm down. Calm down dear. Mistakes happen. I will delete it”, replied she

Can’t give up. But i want to.

I was cheated by my best friend. She has left me, making me feel unworthy. I apologized to her so much, even If she was equally to blame for all the quarrel. My apology was never accepted. I was so honest with her, cared for her and yet, she never even bothered to give our friendship another chance. It has put a dent on my self respect. I feel destroyed. I am never alone but I feel alone. I feel like kneeling in front of her bowing my head in defeat and collapse onto her feet, cry and say, “I am lost. Don’t reject me again. Accept me. Even if as a slave.”