I moved to a new city about a year ago and joined a new team at work. My friend, who I’ll call Ben for this story, was on my team. I noticed him right away, super cute, sweet, smart, etc. So I befriended him, and he’s basically my best friend in my new city. However, the reason I moved was to be with my bf, so nothing happened for a *long* time, despite my crush.
Recently, though, my bf and I had a falling out, and so we’re in a weird gray non-monogamous, maybe dating? spot. He’s on Tinder. And despite how I feel about him, I could not stop thinking about fucking Ben. We hang out a lot, and were slowly moving towards this spot – him letting his hands touch mine when exchanging drinks, putting our faces close together to read something, that kind of thing.
Last night I finally broke. We were each about a bottle of wine in, sitting on my bed, and I mentioned how I want to kiss him all the time. That was all it took; he was on top of me, kissing me deeply, in seconds. I didn’t have any condoms but I trust him, because I know I’m only the second girl he’s ever slept with.