Failed anal sex [F]

Hey everyone
Wanted to tell you guys about my first and only anal sex experience which failed lol. I was always scared of anal sex. But when you’re in love with someone you have your sexual connection at peak with him/her . My bf (zee) asked me if we can have anal sex . I refused to let him do that because I heard that its quite painful.

After asking repeatedly he was successful in convincing me to take his rod in my asshole. Well you guys can say that I agreed to do that out of love and I was not fully ready for the action and funny thing was that I completely forgot about it when we got the opportunity to have fun alone in the room.

So the day we were alone in the room cuddling ,kissing and sucking each other he asked me to remove my tights so he can bang me from behind. I took a pause and he reminded me that I agreed to have anal sex . I was thinking more about my asshole if its clean than the anal pain .