[FM] My (40f) first sexual experience with a younger guy (26m) was supposed to be just a massage…

This is really long wow, but it might not be a very exciting story judging by some of the other stories on this subreddit. But it happened about 7 weeks ago and I cannot stop thinking about it so I’m going to write it out here.

I’ve been married for over 15 years and had never been sexual with anyone but my husband, ever before. And our marriage is fine, it’s just that sexually it hasn’t been… exciting, exhilarating, for a long time. And my favorite thing in the world is to have him go down on me, and he does to make me happy, but never for very long. It’s wonderful but I always want more. It was about a year and a half ago that I started reading things and looking at things that I shouldn’t. I’m not going to dwell on that but suffice to say, I was feeling a real wondering about what experiences might be out there… and I definitely have developed a fantasy about being with much younger guys.