Three years. For three years I’ve been living with this man. I know every single thing that makes him tick. I know just what to say, what to do, and I take a lot of pride in it.
But what I hate is when he tries to act like I can’t read him. Like I don’t know when he’s hiding something from me. For the past two weeks, he’s been so distant. It’s been bugging the fuck out of me because I just keep wracking my brain; what did I do?
I’m hoping that because it’s valentine’s day tomorrow he’ll show some more love towards me. It’s so weird to not even see him look at me. There’s no other way to describe it except that it hurts tremendously.
I shift my head up and I look at the clock. 11:43 pm. My hand slides over to his side of the bed and my hand grabs nothing. Pure air. I turn over and I stare at the ceiling. Small tears falling from the corners of my eyes as I felt the pillow underneath me get wet. Second, by second I can feel my throat getting tighter and tighter and I raise my hands to my eyes. I ground the palms of my hands into my eyes as if that’s going to stop the flood of tears about to fall out of my eyes right now.