Illicit Affairs [FM]

You and I both know how this is going to go, or at least I thought so.

You throw me off as soon as you’re being affectionate to me as I get off the train- I don’t know how to tell you that I love it and I want to reciprocate and I *can* reciprocate, I was just caught off-guard. The light choking in the train station got me going more than I’d ever admit, especially when you pulled me close and saying you wanted everyone to see I was “your girl”; there was a part of me that wanted you to push me against the wall (I’m not proud of it).

Before I know it, we’re in your room and your hand is wrapped around my throat goading me to call you Daddy. It’s light at first but my resistance pushes you to keep squeezing, take my breath away, and have me fall to the floor. There’s a minute where everything is far away, your voice doesn’t sound real and I don’t know where I am. You take advantage of this, peeling my shirt off me, unthreading my belt, pull my pants off, and lay me flat on the floor. I’m regaining enough sense to see you above me and feel you throw me on to your bed.

Sa[F]e sex is possible when people keep their [M]ouths shut.

Maybe hate-fucking the first attractive man on Tinder isn’t the most conventional coping mechanism after a heartbreak… yet someone stumbles into my web around 9:30 PM and I tell him to come.

My prey drives 45 minutes to see me on a cold, dark, icy night; he must be aching to get his balls drained by some pretty little thing. The streetlight reveals the tattoos sleeves running up his muscular arms as he tries to do the “polite” thing and ask me about myself which, frankly, I don’t care to share. He has a tent pitched in his pants for the duration of the drive through campus- he’s noticed that I’m only wearing a bra under my coat in between my directions.

We park. It’s not the first time I’ve hooked up here, it was a common place for my ex and I to fuck on the hood of his car freshman year of uni. Nothing has changed since then, other than the car and the guy I’m fucking.