I was always unique kind of nerd or ambivert , who knew his stuff and what surrounded him but still lacked what it means to have a partner or I can say a sexual partner.
I met this girl Rachel during my second year of college during a fest and first sight I was intrigued by her beauty , quite taller than me, big dark eyes but I couldn’t reach out to her coz I had a belief that being average guy it would be quite impossible to make contact or even have sex. Still gathered my all strengths like Black Adam(comics fans would get this) I reached out to her and I can tell you whatever my mind prepared to talk to her , it was quite opposite and we started hanging out , chatting and stuff .
She had a boyfriend who wasnt that serious in relationship , coz he was kind of fuckboy who keeps wondering on girls, but I could not understand why she was still onto him. Months go by , I couldn’t initiate any move or sex chatting with her thinking that would make my things worse, then one day she tells me she and her bf took a break in relationship , this also I couldn’t understand.