[MF] Non-consensual sex that gave me a lifetime of fetishes, masterbation fodder and guilt

About 15 years ago, I (now 34M, then 19M) was visiting Goa with a few friends. I’m Indian, 6ft tall and kept myself fit by working out and swimming. Most of the trip involved a lot of drinking and generally going for long rides on rented scooters.

A few days into the holiday, a bunch of us were sitting in the AC hotel room covered under a blanket. The tv was playing and we were nursing hangovers from the previous night.

The person sitting next to me (let’s call her Chandni, 27F at the time) started rubbing her leg against mine under the covers.

I was a little taken aback, I had a long distance partner at that time and was hesitant to proceed. But being 19, I reciprocated by touching her.

Slowly, I began sliding my hand on her thigh, she firmly took my hand and slid it into her leggings, she wasn’t wearing anything under them and I started rubbing my hand around her pussy, stroking it. She spread her legs apart and I slid my finger in. Slowly fingering her under the covers. I was really concerned about the others finding out and after a few minutes I pulled my hand out.