Broke my hymen [29F] with a small bottle [FM]

I always imagine how it feels like a cock inside me but due to religious reasons I was not allowed to have sex out of marriage and sex toys are not available in my place. Day by day, I wonder how it feels when someone is pounding me from behind while he is rubbing my clit and pressing my breast that’s how I ended up masturbating. It starting from crossing myself then watching porn and i’ve learned to rub my clit and insert my finger but my body wants something more and I couldnt take that feeling anymore.that’s when I decided to insert a small bottle inside my tight pussy..It was so hard to insert but the moment it started I couldnt stop myself to fuck myself deeper and faster while Im bleeding and You read it right, I broke my own hymen from a small bottle..