Im far to naive to break down the psychology in my own words and don’t want to plagiarize some article so bear with me. I’ve read that in our adolescence and puberty stages of life that we are extremely impressionable and that sexual events at this time frame can leave its mark of Cain on us forever. I have given deep thought to wether or not I believe this and am starting to believe it holds water. In many ways I’ve been no different than any other man with your typical desires and fantasies. Asians check, older women check, huge breasts, cheerleader outfits, and any other cliche you can imagine. So where am I going with this? One single urge has remained a constant in the deepest core of my body. I am addicted cheating or cheaters.
Don’t check out now , trust me I know the stigma and how it can ruin lives. This is part of the struggle that feeds into my guilt. However, nothing comes close to satisfaction and euphoric stage I feel during the pursuit , during the sex and the entire allure of it all. I’ve had plenty of great nights with great sex with some of the most beautiful women but every single highlight my brain flashes back to are those encounters that are burned into my psyche.