I’ve never told anyone about her or any of this and before I die I need to get it out there at least. Also to clarify I guess she wasn’t as much a “bully” as someone who just hated everyone.
In school there was this girl I was absolutely obsessed with. She was this hardcore goth girl at a time and school when being goth wasn’t necessarily “cool”. One of my guilty pleasures was punk music and aside from the fact she was stunning, thin but had an amazing body. Wore tight jeans with a band t shirt and either keds or doc martins. She has about middle length hair that was black with dark blue tips. Black eyeliner and dark eyes that I always made my chest hurt when she made eye contact.
She was also very taboo, very blatantly didn’t give a fuck about anything. She was almost always mean to me and would frequently hit me in some way. ( kicking me in the shins under the desk, punching me when I was sitting next to her, pull my hair ) a lot of times just because she found me or what I did annoying or stupid. I didn’t sit next to her by choice, our names were close together so me and her sat together at a four desk table and the other seats were empty. Which worked out for me because even though I would like to sit next to her if I wasn’t forced to I probably never would have.