Am I still a lesbian? [19] [F] [FMF]

So being 100% honest here– this isn’t exactly quite a sex story, but I really need to get it off my chest. My whole life I’ve never been attracted to men. Romantically or sexually At all.

Yet, there are times were I’ll be in a headspace where my kinks instanty twist into the realm of things like “breeding”, “daddy/sir, ect. If I fall too deep in the hole of horniness. And overall, being desperate.

I don’t know exactly why. I’ve considered myself homosexual my whole life, however I considered both Pansexuality, and Bisexuality. As any type of femme, and or, masculine looking person I find attractive.

But those who consistently identify themselves as men.. I just don’t know.

I don’t know If I’m subconsciously liking humiliation and putting men down as my ‘punishment’ persay, but I’m completely lost.

Mainly due to the fact, even now, I sometimes message guys with the idea that we can get each other off. Especially If I’m desperate- I will actually beg to be ‘stretched out’ or ‘bred.’

So either I’m just a hormonal 19 year old, or Incompetent as per usual.