I tried to be good… Jesus will help me, right? [FM]

Okay, so this was a number of years ago but I suddenly remembered it last night. Only a handful of people know about this — mostly because I live in a super conservative community and I’m wholeheartedly mortified by it.

When I (F) was 21, I was having this wild summer (for me) and going to parties with alcohol. Laugh all you want, but this wasn’t common and it certainly was something that would get me labeled as a “slut” in church world/not good wife material. When I would get drunk, I would make out with almost any guy because my self esteem gauge didn’t exist yet. Also, **drunk make-outs are fun.**

Fast forward to an old friend (23M) e-mailing me that he’d moved back to town and would I like to go out for dinner to reconnect? He had this awesome BigCity skyrise condo and was someone I’d always been attracted to, but the timing never worked out. He was a Harvard grad, and going to law school at Georgetown. A truly interesting person.