I posted this story around a year ago and was genuinely relieved and appreciative of the kind and positive comments. Esp given the rather taboo content. Unfortunately, revealing such an intimate and secret experience made me really quite anxious and I deleted the content.
Thing is, I have lots of experience with submission but extremely vanilla (and lovely) friends. They would no doubt lock me up in the nearest psychiatric facility if they knew what I was like behind closed doors :)
So here I am again, dying to share my good (and bad) experiences. I shall try not to delete this time :) I also made an online friend recently who was v non-judgemental and He seems to have given me a much needed confidence boost :)
*************
I’ve always been submissive and rather masochistic and my ex introduced me to BDSM on quite a serious level. Sex with him was exhilarating, addictive and challenging. He pushed limits and I would (and did) do anything for him. Not only did I take a ridiculous amount of pride in my obedience, I was in awe of him. Smitten. I was in love and keen to show it.