I[F] did it again with an old [M]an outdoor.

This confession happens few months after what I described here : [https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/9kedo1/f_a_long_time_ago_i_let_a_much_older_man_do/](https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/9kedo1/f_a_long_time_ago_i_let_a_much_older_man_do/)

It took some time, like few months, to think about that very special experience. Thinking of it disgusted me as much as it aroused me so I was very confused.

It’s not easy to share this to anybody. I couldn’t tell my family nor my friends. I can’t imagine telling them what I did and what I let this old man do to me, even if it wasn’t “so much”.

But, after a while, I started to think more and more about that experience. And in a better way. I mean that it became more exciting than embarrassing.

So much exciting that I tried to find something similar. I thought that, maybe, I could do better, or more…

I took my time. As I was thinking about what happened the first time, I began to understand that things could have gone horribly wrong, so I tried to be more careful.

I was chatting with some men on the same forum, explaining what I wanted and what were my conditions.

[F] A long time ago I let a much older man do things to me

(Sorry for the bad english)

Since very young I was reading and watching a lot of porn stuff. And I mean A LOT.

Seeing all that and having no girlfriend, i started to hang out on sex forums, talking to people about our fantasies. One thing coming to another I started to talk with men, especially much older men. At that time I was lying about my age.

One of them (56M) was very nice and comprehensive with me, and we talked a lot. after a while i got very excited to talk with him about sex and he finally asked me if we could meet in real to talk and see what happen, as he was not far from me.

I was in such a mindset that I said ok if it was in a “neutral” spot. He proposed me to pay a hotel room.

The day of the meeting I was very anxious but still excited to freely talk about sex with someone. I precise that we have never saw each other before, not even a picture.