GF on vacation with crush. She doesn’t know about my cuckold fantasies. [MF]

GF on vacation with crush. She doesn’t know about my cuckold fantasies. [MF]

Background: My GF and I have been dating for 3 years. We are both 26 and have a pretty solid relationship. She is extremely attractive, intelligent, funny, and outgoing. While we are pretty open with each other, she doesn’t know about my cuckold and humiliation desires. She is very submissive and so am I so this has occasionally led to some issues in our relationship and many in the bedroom. I’ve tried to be more dominant and take charge more both in the bedroom and in our relationship but it’s very difficult for me.

While I want her to cuckold me very badly, it’s sometimes difficult for me to fully accept/admit it. Sometimes I get jealous when she is around other guys, but it also turns me on so much to watch them hit on her in front of me, and watch her flirt back. She is very outgoing so it doesn’t really seem like flirting to her, but it definitely is. I feel embarrassed and ashamed. But I want her to see me for the beta male I am.