(F/M)! Affairs of the heart and body

Ive been married for 20 years. My husband is a nice man but he literally hates sex. The liquids, the smell of sex, the feeling of a wet mouth on his cock all bad things to him. After the birth of our last child all sex stopped in our house. He’d done his duty. He would buy me sex toys and give me a finger fuck maybe twice a month. He thought it was all I needed. No intimate touches or breasts being sucked and zero kissing.