Over the past year, I�ve been exploring my sexuality to an unprecedented degree, and in spite of what society warns us, I�ve never been happier. I have wonderful friends, some of whom are even happy to talk about my slutty predilections.
That being said, I feel like I am nearing a precipice. I find myself wanting to push the envelope more and more. For example, now that several of my boyfriend�s friends know about my open mindedness, I find myself fighting the urge to flirt more and fantasizing about being used as a release for their sexual frustrations. I fear that I am reaching the point where any more action on my part may lead to undesirable consequences, especially as these friends have relationships of their own. I try to at least be an ethical slut. Even so, my opportunistic brain can�t help but notice how easy it is to stoke desire at certain moments, and part of me wants so badly to cross the line. In the moment, sometimes I worry I can�t trust myself not to try. Thinking about it is both agonizing and delicious in equal measure.