I’ve had a few serious relationships. The last was with a really controlling narcissist who was really threatened by me even talking to other guys. Stupidly I ended up changing my behaviour and even distanced myself from close guy friends. Anyway he cheated on me and then was dumb enough to leave his Whatsapp web open on has laptop, so I know he did stuff with at least three other girls that I know of. I was actually sick reading what he wrote to them, physically puked. I was staying at his place so obviously left straight away.
I’m not the best at feeling shit or being alone but I did call Sara my absolute bestie, my rock. Sara has (and probably will always be) the more confident and outgoing one of us. We’ve known each other since we were 11 ffs. She really listened to me and hugged me for hours. We basically then spent a weekend drinking and plotting revenge – she’s a dark bitch and I love her for it, daring too. She’d been open about being very hesitant about my ex whilst we were dating. She rightfully pointed out how insanely jealous he would get over nothing. While it might have been healthier to confront him and start making sense of it all – I was also very ready to hurt him. I blanked his calls for those couple of days.