I need help…addicted to harmful and abusive sub fantasy (m/f)

I brought this on myself, but I’m addicted and don’t know how to get out. I have been dom with my wife, but wanted to try being submisive and humiliated. It’s been in the back of my mind for awhile now. My wife and I are in a semi-open relationship and we play on fetlife.

 

I contacted a cute, curvy girl named Ally about being her sub slave and was a little surprised by how eager and responsive she was from the start. She told me that she was going to dominate me and humiliate me. We exchanged personal pics to prove we were real and she made fun of my body and my cock. She said that I wasn’t hot enough for her and that I would only be good for a few things. When she found out that I had a wife, she took it in a direction that I didn’t think would or could happen though, and I was surprised by how much I love it. But it’s so wrong. And destructive.