[FF] Failed discretion and mutual benefits

*A recent prompt on a writing sub led me to reminisce about a night of mutual masturbation that turned into so much more.*

*For the sake of painting the picture, I had just turned 19, about 165 cm (5’5″) and pretty lean at the time (I avoided scales like the plague back then, but if I had to guess around 110-115 lbs?), discreet curves and perky 32B breasts completing the picture. My natural red hairs had an overlay of pale blonde, just over shoulder length, and I had no idea what to do with them so I’d just braid them most of the time since that’s pretty much the only hairstyling I was capable of. My most distinctive feature was the mid-lip piercing I had gotten the summer before as an ultimate sign of rebellious independence™.*

*Sarah had was a year older and a nose taller than me. She had an athletic figure with the amazing muscle tone that rock-climbing gals have in college. You wouldn’t know it from the clothes she wore, but her boobs were in the 34D range. She had black hairs the length of a bob cut with the right side of her head shaven. That time I also found out she had her right nipple pierced and a Chinese dragon tattoo on her right flank.*

[FF] I think my GF lowkey hate-fucked me

Full disclosure: My GF and I have been in a great relationship for over nearly five years now, by far the healthiest and most fulfilling relationship I’ve ever been in. However, our sex life has always been our highest point of tension. We are on completely different rhythms (as in, when my libido is down, hers is at its peak, and vice versa) and she doesn’t share most of my kinks. In the past, she was also somewhat bothered by my ambiguous sexuality. All that pales in face of the fact that she believes I cheated on her last spring. While I was never unfaithful, I did flirt a lot with someone back then (topic for another time) and she never quite believed that nothing else happened. Regardless, let’s just say it put a hell of a damper on our sexual intimacy.

For a general picture, I’m a 163 cm and 59 kg (that’s roughly 5’4″ and 130 lbs) athletic mid-short haired redhead. My girlfriend, a lithe 175 cm and 64 kg (~5’9″, 141 lbs) blonde with gorgeous long hair. Though she is taller, I’ve always assumed a more dominant role in our sex life. Important detail, my girlfriend is usually very romantic, she usually prefers long passionate sex (I like it too, mind you), and she’s one of those person that firmly believes kissing is more intimate than actual sex.