I was raised in a Muslim family with strict parents so I was still pretty sexually inexperienced at 19. I went to an all-girls high school and I wasn’t allowed to date or even talk to boys. I was also taught that masturbation is a sin. I would sometimes grind on my pillow at night but I hadn’t touched myself.
In my first year of college in another city away from home, I experimented with wearing more revealing, sluttier clothes. I even kissed someone at a party. I made friends with my roommate who took me home with her over the winter break and introduced me to her super good looking dad who I had an instant crush on. He was 6’3″ with broad shoulders, big hands and a deep voice which made me tingle everytime he talked! He was a Marine in Iraq so he even spoke some Arabic which I thought was pretty cool.
Even though nothing happened, there was an obvious attraction between us and we kept in touch on social media. I don’t know how, but the conversation slowly turned sexual. We would message back and forth and I would continue to grind on my pillow. A few months later, he was in town and we arranged to meet up secretly in his hotel room.