I’m bored. It’s not you, it’s me. It’s my gravitation towards the perverse. It’s my gravitation towards all things that I shouldn’t want, that I shouldn’t do, that I shouldn’t like. Nothing worth doing is comfortable or without consequences. The cliche of wanting something simply because you shouldn’t has always resonated with me – or in me.
That’s where I began. I shouldn’t want anonymous sex, I shouldn’t want anal, and it’s dangerous to cum inside someone you barely know, let alone feel their insides unprotected. “Practice safe sex” they said. “Dont cum in crazy” my friends advised me. Well, what the fuck if I want to? What if I want to impregnate crazy? What if I want to slap their ass and go fucking nuts for once too? Live for once? Feel alive for once?
I’d been managing this online Erotica forum for a few weeks when Carly joined (also known as CumFilledC). She started submitting stories after a few days of comments and lurking and they weren’t half bad. I even beat my dick to one and ejaculated harder than I was prepared for – it was about a hot tub I think. Anyway, Carly kept posting and her writing and continued to improve. It became somewhat of a ritual for me to sit down after work in my office at home and orgasm to Carly’s words written in lust. I read them in lust too.