It’s been a stressful weeks at my college. Lots of projects, lots of deadlines. Most of my pals are just having fun and don’t get stressed too much, but I know I must to study well to succeed in live. My strict parents taught me this. And I try my best not to disappoint them even if it means that I almost have no friends, and people around think that I’m a boring nerd.
But all my project are finished now. I should have feel release and go to party, but instead I sit in a lonely library and try to resist my urge. It’s this week in the middle of my period where I feel extremely vulnerable and now I feel growing of this tickle in my hips. I promised myself not to do this ever again, and yet I sit and feel like I’ll succumb to the temptation. At least, I’ve been very good this months and my body needs something. My fingers are shaking a little, my breathing gets slower.