Last night I learned I’m a total cumslut [MM]

I have gone 40+ years of my life knowing I wasn’t 100% straight. Last night I experimented with a man and it suited me. A lot!

As a kid I experimented with other boys, but left it behind (albeit with some nagging feelings) before puberty. I had plenty of opportunity to explore that side of me living in LA in my 20s, but was too scared and confused. So it wasn’t until my wife and I have recently started going to sex clubs and playing with other couples that the idea of being bi came up. Turns out we both have some curiosity, so after she did some (largely unsuccessful) exploration, it became my turn. So I put an ad into a Reddit R4R sub and found a few guys I clicked with.

The guy I really clicked with couldn’t make that first night, but before I lost my nerve I quickly said yes to another guy who was available. He was really kind and patient and since all I wanted to try was a blowjob and was very nervous about the whole thing, I asked him to walk in strip down and I’d immediately start sucking. This happened pretty much as planned and was over and done with before I’d even figured out how I felt about it. I didn’t like his cock, I was kind of racing through it and in the end was no closer to figuring out my feelings on the matter.