Somethings are changed due to concealing those involved and me forgetting every detail…
2:30 am. Suburban USA I am in my early 20s and I am running around screaming in the middle of the night thinking that the FBI is following me and the the internet is “talking to me”. Although its a mix of pure euphoria and terror, in reality its my first episode of mania, and in about 12 hours from now I will diagnosed with manic depressive illness and my life will never be the same….
I grew up in suburbia and when I was in my teens to early 20s I had handful of sexual encounters with several different woman. I went to college but dropped out due to depression before I had any chance live the college life. I started smoking marijuana heavy and fell into a deeper depression over the following year or so…
One spring, all of sudden, the world all made sense. I was thinking clearly and everything was clicking… I started to spiral upwards into a manic episode where I would embarrass myself publicly and land myself in the hospital. There they would give me massive amounts of drugs and I would gain 70 pounds in a few months…