My therapist recommended that I might gain clarity and peace through journaling. You see, I feel conflicted, by my dear husband’s recent actions. On one hand, I feel diminished and devalued, but on the other, I feel embarrassed that he saw something in me that I didn’t even know I wanted. Or were his actions completely selfish? Does he only care for his own gains that I somehow am uniquely qualified to fulfill? Or, even more paradoxically, reveal that he is completely dependent on me….that I actually have complete power over him? So many thoughts, so confusing.
I’ve thought of an even better way to gain understanding. Taking my therapist’s recommendation to another level. I’ve recently found the thrills of the anonymity of exhibiting pictures and short videos of myself on the internet. Perhaps the feedback from you strangers can help me. So, that’s why I’ve decided to share this with all of you. You need the backstory, and I’ll try to be as unbiased as possible. Please share your insights. I’ll give you a bit of background first before I tell you details of what happened 2 months ago.