The day that changed everything, the day I learned about BBC. [F]

It’s Thursday night and I am having a hard time sleeping as I lay here in bed, my stomach is jumping with butterflies as my mind keeps racing to tomorrow and my meeting up with Markus(Gym partner). I have spent every moment since that text inviting me over to his place contemplating if I would actually show up or just not show and make up an excuse. It is really a waste of my time and unnecessary struggle/stress as I know deep down inside that I plan to go, at the very least to see what might happen. I have told myself that I can walk away any moment during my visit and that is my way to mentally feel like I have control. My hubby lays besides me sound asleep, completely clueless to the struggles of curiosity I have been going through. As i lay in bed and try my best to clear my mind so I can get some rest one final thought echos in my mind as I drift off,” Tomorrow will change me, one way or another. I will either fight these urges and walk away back to my normal life stronger than ever or I will take that step into a new world. A new me. Who will I choose to be?”

The Moment a happily married woman is tempted.

I had first seen him at the gym, I had actually posted once about him on another SM of mine as he was working out and clearly was not wearing any underwear. I couldn’t believe guys wouldn’t wear underwear at the gym. With those gym shorts on as he worked out I couldn’t help but stare as that thing kept bouncing around and would occasionally drop low enough I would catch myself staring trying to get a glimpse. We would see each other often in the gym and he caught me on more than one occasion staring at his crotch, lost in my dirty thoughts or trying to get a peek to determine the true size behind those gym shorts.

When Lust happens @ work pt 3;The Tale of a wife and mom giving into new found desires.

I walked into his room and I began to remove my cloths as he instructed me to do, I stopped as I got to his bed and turned around. He was standing at the door now and was slowly closing it but still just staring, I could feel his eyes all over my body. He smiled and walked towards me, he began to caress my body with his hands and I closed my eyes and just enjoyed the touch of this new man, I could smell him and he smelled good, I could feel his gentle touch on my breasts and my hips as he worked his way around my body. He asked if I wanted this, if I really wanted this to happen right now. I tried speaking but I could not generate much more than a soft moan of yes and the nodding of my head. Then I felt those strong arms wrap around me and he lifted me up and  carried me to his bed, I melted in his arms and if I had any reservations still they drifted out of my mind and body as I felt those big hands on my pussy and begin to slowly rub me so softly. 

When Lust happens @ work pt 2 [FM] A tale of a wife and mom giving into new found desires.

**When Lust happens @ work pt 2 [FM] A tale of a wife and mom giving into new found desires.**

I had texted him two days after he gave me his number, I told myself not to but I did. I couldn’t get him off my mind or, if I want to be honest, it off my mind. It has been quite awhile since Carlos and I have been together and I have been craving it badly lately. My sex life with my husband has been the best it has been in a very long time, I could not help be think it was related to this path I was taking.The truth was I was having those urges again too and Carlos has been quiet for a long time now, not returning texts. I even tried calling him a few times with no luck. The urges finally got the best of me. I have always been strong willed, even when solicited on here by local men who looked amazing or fit the need I wanted or thirst for. I had always been able to pull myself back and restrain myself. Not that day at work, I slipped. I was not able to hide behind my keyboard on this one, I had let my urges for a man with a sizable offering break that strong will and I submitted.

When Lust happens @ work pt2. A tale of a wife and mom giving into new found desires. [FM]

I had texted him two days after he gave me his number, I told myself not to but I did. I couldn’t get him off my mind or, if I want to be honest, it off my mind. It has been quite awhile since Carlos and I have been together and I have been craving it badly lately. My sex life with my husband has been the best it has been in a very long time, I could not help be think it was related to this path I was taking.The truth was I was having those urges again too and Carlos has been quiet for a long time now, not returning texts. I even tried calling him a few times with no luck. The urges finally got the best of me. I have always been strong willed, even when solicited on here by local men who looked amazing or fit the need I wanted or thirst for. I had always been able to pull myself back and restrain myself. Not that day at work, I slipped. I was not able to hide behind my keyboard on this one, I had let my urges for a man with a sizable offering break that strong will and I submitted.

My Secret part 1 MF

I have been asked this question several times and I always side stepped it like a polished politician. Then one night after several glasses of wine and chatting on an adult anonymous site I disclosed MY SECRET  privately to a fellow late night chatter and it felt so good. The weight I had carried was lifted so I thought I would finally share in a post. Now I am not good at writing or story telling so don’t be critical:

I was at my girlfriends house warming party, she was one of my best friends who I met through my husband, I was there with one of my other gf’s I work with. My husband had stayed home to babysit as we often rotate going out with our friends. The party had been going on for several hours and everyone was having fun and just bouncing around talking. One of my other Co-workers had arrived,his name was Carlos, and he had been working at our job for about 2 months. In that short time he had made his rounds with several of the girls in the office. He was arrogant and I always associated it with his age,he was 23 years old, and I never understood how these other girls always seem so memorized by him. He was young and fit but so cocky and full of himself so when talking with one of my Gf’s and finding out she too had hooked up with him I was shocked. Well he eventually started to always flirt with me and I always shot him down and reminded him that I was quite happy being married the last 15 years and he had no chance. He soon backed off but would always comment in passing that he was going to ,”Tap this married ass” and I would love it. It soon just became part of everyday office banter. 

This was not expected, another first for me. [MFM] [Non-fiction]

It was Thursday when I was at work that I got the text from Carlos, he was coming in town from California and wanted to meet up. I was at my desk when I noticed the name on the screen “ Sophia” pop up and my stomach fluttered, I have him under that name just in case my hubby see’s it. He knows my friend Sophia and does not care for her as she is always complaining about everything so he immediately discounts any time she calls or texts. She is the perfect cover :) 

I of course was excited and feeling guilty already when he told me he was coming in Sunday because I knew I couldn’t say no, He has become my weakness and I cannot explain it but I was tingling with excitement and already trying to figure out how I was going to make this happen as I powered through work rest of the day trying to stay focused . Well it could not have worked better as Friday night my hubby came home and told me some of his friends were getting together Sunday night to have a gaming night(they set up tournaments with each other) and asked if it was okay if they all came over to our place. I told him yes and that I would go shopping and hang out wth my friends to give them the house. 

My Secret pt II [F] [m] [non-fiction] [Adultery]

I have recieved many questions about my post ,’My Secret” and what happened and if I seen Carlos again. I will share but once again I am not a writer so be kind :)

It was awkward at first when I went back to work and I tried to think of many reasons not to go back and face Carlos and the fear that he would talk or it would leak out what happened that night but to my surprise he never spoke a word about it and never tried to push me on it. It was about 10 days after it had happened that Carlos got fired from work, he went out his own way I guess you could say as he was caught having sex in the stairwell of the building with one of the girls who worked in HR. I always thought he got shafted though as he was fired but she was just reassigned to another office and kept her job. Anyway, so I have made several chat friends on another site and some i make it a point to talk to when ever I can and others we just chat as time permits but I have found them to be exciting, fun and sometimes hot, sexy and erotic. It is a way for me to express myself without fear of ridicule.

My Secret pt 1 [MF]

I have been asked this question several times and I always side stepped it like a polished politician. Then one night after several glasses of wine and chatting on an adult anonymous site I disclosed MY SECRET  privately to a fellow late night chatter and it felt so good. The weight I had carried was lifted so I thought I would finally share in a post. Now I am not good at writing or story telling so don’t be critical:

I was at my girlfriends house warming party, she was one of my best friends who I met through my husband, I was there with one of my other gf’s I work with. My husband had stayed home to babysit as we often rotate going out with our friends. The party had been going on for several hours and everyone was having fun and just bouncing around talking. One of my other Co-workers had arrived,his name was Carlos, and he had been working at our job for about 2 months. In that short time he had made his rounds with several of the girls in the office. He was arrogant and I always associated it with his age,he was 23 years old, and I never understood how these other girls always seem so memorized by him. He was young and fit but so cocky and full of himself so when talking with one of my Gf’s and finding out she too had hooked up with him I was shocked. Well he eventually started to always flirt with me and I always shot him down and reminded him that I was quite happy being married the last 15 years and he had no chance. He soon backed off but would always comment in passing that he was going to ,”Tap this married ass” and I would love it. It soon just became part of everyday office banter.