I (24) cheated on my SO with a 38 year old guy from Fetlife [FM]

We have been talking, sending photos on Snapchat. We were both into kink and DD/lg. He was older, blonde hair, had facial hair, a few wrinkles, strong Australian accent, mildly obese- had a gut, he was a little dishevelled, was wearing a white oversized singlet, rough around the edges. Not the kind of guy I was hoping for, maybe I was desperate.
He told me he was a tafe teacher, had 3 kids and had a vasectomy.
I told him to bring me a gift, a stuffed animal or stickers or something cute but he didn’t. I thought he would buy me a coffee, he didn’t.

We met up a service station, he was bringing a caravan for a road trip. I also had somewhere to go that day and it was halfway. He was 45minutes late because caravan problems but I waited. I felt strange walking into the service station with the sluttiest outfit, a cropped black top, pink push up bra, black thong, Tiffany necklace and a plaid mini skirt so short if I moved a bit it would expose my bum- he told me to wear heels but I was at a service station- it was busy, loud and there were families eating McDonald’s and the type of place people would wear pyjamas not heels, I was already overdressed. I wore white sneakers. i did my makeup, had on perfume, shaved, had Tom Ford shimmering oil on-I felt like an expensive hooker though. I had sunglasses on and listened to my earphones, I saw eyes staring at me. I sat for 45mins.