Author: ItsAlexisx

[F] What happens at the after party

I’m tagging this as ‘First Time’ because a lot of first times happened on this night. I don’t remember all of them and had to be told later.

In 2017 I had done my first and only professional shoot to date at the age of 19, and I was in an elevator heading up the Shard in London. There were five other girls with me and only one wasn’t new to this, before getting there she got us to meet in her hotel room to preload and get ready for a little party hosted by people connected to agencies.

Having read many of the stories already put up I know you all like details. I was wearing a black dress of my own over one of the lingerie sets I was modelling, a blue and black full set complete with the stockings and suspender belt. Back then I was still my natural brunette and I might have some of the photos on a USB somewhere, unfortunately what I have to hand is a pretty bad relic of a photo that I tried to touch a bit. Read more »

My turn to be caught [F]

When [I found out my parents had been making sex tapes](https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/t2ms2b/caught_f/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share) those were images that probably damaged me, finding out about the things they had done shook me up a bit. It was straight from being horny to confused and a little upset from the moment I turned it off and put the DVD back in the box.

I’m well aware now that it was hypocrital of me where I was eager to watch other people do things like that but I became angry and felt betrayed that my parents would do something like that themselves. I mean just imagine you found out your own mother was being offered out or was offering herself, the talks about boys (or girls) and being careful was far more hypocrital than my anger and whilst I wasn’t thinking about it along those lines right then it is still true today.

I didn’t bring any of up it with them mainly because I didn’t want to have that conversation for many reasons, first there is the fact I immediately wanted to pretend they weren’t doing that and second I was convinced I was going to be in big trouble looking through their bedroom. There are a whole host of other reasons why I didn’t want to tell them I knew. All of these were building up for days after. Read more »

Caught [F]

Years ago I was exploring my body and sexuality, I would find myself in my room watching porn with headphones trying to be as quiet as I could. I would lock my door and lose myself imagining I was those women on the screen with my eyes closed, hearing the moans and only briefly open them to see the sex playing so that my minds eye could put me in the scene.

This went on for months and I dug deeper into a rabbit hole as I went from boy/girl, girl/girl to more depraved videos like orgies, gangbangs and the fake incest videos that were everywhere. My embarrassment had faded and whenever my parents had left the house I would forgo using my headphones to allow the sounds through speakers. I no longer worried if the sounds of sex leaked through the windows to the outside, I didn’t care if anyone out there heard me moan as I got myself off. Read more »