When I was freshly 18 and freshman in college I began utilizing dating apps to fulfill my desires of being with an older man. I quickly met J, 38, and began frequently hooking up with him. He took my virginity, and I was exposed to so much with him. Like cnc, impact play, breath play, and orgasm control. He even trained me in ignoring my gag reflex and how to give a great blow job.
My time seeing him was fun and some of the best sex I’ve ever had. I loved how he manhandled my body and treated me like a slut. I was so sad when we fell out of contact when I went home for winter break.
I spent the spring semester having unfulfilling sex with guys from my school, until meeting my current boyfriend T, 30. Sex began to be fun again and not such a chore. Despite this, I still occasionally found myself thinking about J, but never reached out.