So a lot of you may find this completely fucked up but ive meant to get it off my chest.. When I was like 14 me and my mom were swimming in the pool and we were playing with a torpedo. We kept hiding it from each other. Eventually she hid it in her one piece bathing suite and I looked everywhere and she rubbed her chest against me and i felt it and i saw it between her breasts and I stuck my arm in and grabbed it. She made every bit of sure to feel my boner right after. So we keep playing and I hide it in my pants. She looks and eventually grabbed my penis and I played along and than she backed up and grabbed the toy. Someway or another we started dry humping under water and eventually we went in and that was the end of it. Later on I went to get a physical and she stayed in the room with me and once again I got horny but didnt act on it. Years went by I’m older now and was addicted to meth. She always caught me masterbaiting and one time I had been up for like 6 days and sent her a bunch of pictures of my cock and videos with my face from a texting app. Next morning she woke up its like 7 am she walks in catches me beating off I play “sleep ” drenched in sweat. Now I’m 8 months clean in rehab and still havent swam with her since but everytime I come home she wants to swim. Shes lost a lot of weight and now wears a two piece.. Often asks how she looks and wants me to come to the pool. I don’t want to act on it cause its fucked up and I know it. But now shits weird.