[FM] My writing might not do the situation justice I don’t mean to make it sound trivial. I just loved how fast I completely lost control even though I was trying so hard to be good.
A little over a year ago I was 21. I had just gotten out of a string of silly relationships that led to nothing and made the decision to focus more on myself instead of on boys. My family lives in a city about half an hour from where I go to school and one time when I was in town visiting them I had went to go get a smoothie. The guy behind the counter told me I had beautiful eyes and asked for my number. I gave it to him cause there were a bunch of people in back of me on line and I didn’t want to make a scene. He was cute. But I didn’t want to date anymore guys. He texted me everyday asking about hanging out which I brushed off. This went on for maybe about four weeks.