It was crazy and I knew there was absolutely No going back If I continued this. I was risking a friendship lasting nearly as far back as I could remember with your daughter, Suzy. It pained me to betray her like this but my long suppressed feeling won out.
I told myself if everything works out like I hoped, and she never finds out. Then what harm would really be done?… I told myslef again and again until I could almost believe it.
Meanwhile I was nearly breaking down at the thoughts of ruining her parents long and loving marriage. The guilt putting on her clothes was almost too much… But the fucked up thing was the guiltier I became, the more excited it made me.
I couldn’t describe thee utter thrill I felt when I drove here. My chance finally coming when Kate and her mother were on a little girls night in the city. I drove in complete silence with the window down.
Checking the time constantly knowing you’d be home not too long after me.