I know, I was stupid, but like every curious virile teenage guy on the cusp of adulthood, I was impatient to experience it. No, I didn’t want to lose it because I was afraid of being mocked for being a virgin in college; I just wanted to tick it off my bucket list as something to experience.
It didn’t help that I was from a hyper conservative Asian upbringing and two years prior, I decided to start educating myself through porn, building up a healthy amount of unrealistic expectations about sex till I was bursting ripe for a major disappointment.
“One never knows how good or bad the first time will be till he tries” was my thinking, and I was yearning for any opportunity to break away into my first experience. Getting a girlfriend, or finding a hook-up was out of the question for deathly introverted me, so the next logical option was a paid partner.