[FF] I love getting into relationships knowing they’ll be toxic for me.

Im with this older woman now, so beautiful, and so very like hypnotizing. So dominant in how she holds herself. I’m pretty helplessly submissive to people like her, and it’s no different with her. I’m like a helpless puppy around her.

She’s very controlling. She chooses what I wear, she’s been adjusting my posture, choosing my hair styles. I can’t say no to her.

Last night she let some men grope and kiss me. They were college age, cat called me while we were walking. She invited them over, told me my body was free to be groped and seen. They slapped my ass, squeezed my tits. I was completely silent, and just accepted this. I looked at her, and she just pet my head as they felt me all over.

Then she stopped them. Said they weren’t what she was looking for. Then we left and went back to her place, and she fingered me while reaffirming things in me. I can’t say no to her. I can’t even imagine doing it. I don’t question her. I just obey. And it’s probably gonna end terribly, lol. But I love it.