Author: haihaifaa

Muslim girls dilemma [MF]

So you’ve probably sent me post before. I am a Palestinian Muslim girl who grew up in America. I definitely didn’t think I’d ever have a boyfriend before marriage but my crush of 5 years who is a white male slid into my DM’s at the age of 19. And what I thought would be innocent fun talking ended up turning into an extremely sexual relationship. And it lasted till we were both 22. It was a sexual opening I must say and I’ll spare the details.

4 months since we’ve broken up (my choice due to him not being the same faith as me) and it’s been a struggle to say the least. Heartbreak is a bitch .

Anyways . Now I currently have arab Muslim boys asking for my hand in marriage. Which is normal at my age / culture. And while I’d love nothing more than to give these gentlemen a shot I’m fully aware that my past isn’t a good one. And I’d feel guilty jumping into something so soon.

While it’s eventually set to happen. I can’t help but remember that once I’m married my ex will still have a thousands of pictures of me in a time that shouldn’t have happened

I was a good Arab Muslim girl, then I got into a relationship with my white EX BF

I can’t help but write about it somewhere. A few years ago when I was 19 my crush since middle school had hit me up flirtatiously. Now I was always a good girl and had a few guys hit on me prior. I’m about 5’3 with a brown tint to my skin. I do lack size up too (32B) but my bottom more than makes up for it I believe. My crush though was a massive 6’4 white male with a relatively athletic body. He was the only boy I daydreamed about ever in high school .

Honestly, when he hit me up I thought I’d have a little fun with convos. But one thing led to another and we ended up hanging out (something I had never done) until he seduced me and fucked me in his bedroom. I did feel guilty. 19 years clean until my one slip up.

However though, it did not stop there . I couldn’t stay away and for 3 years he practically had me wrapped around his finger. I did things I never thought I’d do and tried things I never though I would. Stuff I thought was previously nasty were done because I wanted to please him. Read more »