I’ve been trying to lower my horny levels a bit since my last FWB relationship. I genuinely want to have a good, loving relationship with someone and then let them fuck the life out of me… But unfortunately I’ve got a lot of trust issues since all my relationships tend to end with either betrayal or a fight. The last good relationship I had ended with both, and I haven’t been the same since.
Since then, I’ve tried dating people and they’ve mostly been very interested in sex. Since my sex drive is through the roof, I’m more than happy to oblige. However, when the relationship ends, and my partner still wants to continue sending nudes and such, I get kinda pissy. I don’t like being used as a sex object, especially if I’m being pressured into it.
The first time this happened, I was a sub and was able to shut it down. And most recently, the last FWB relationship I’ve had, I was a dom, and had to shut it down too. I get too emotionally attached, unfortunately, and I know that won’t work out with them.
Author: GriffinWithHorns
[F] Stuffing myself (Masturbation, Confession, Dildo)
Typically when I get off, I use my fingers. I usually rub my clit, and maybe finger myself a bit until I cum, before relaxing and cuddling with my body pillow. It’s easy, requires little preparation or thought, and feels wonderful.
However… Sometimes, when I’m especially longing for someone, I’ll get into moods where my regular routine isn’t enough. It’s a different kind of horny where I don’t just need to get off, I need to feel like I’m being fucked. Probably some primal desire or whatever.
Sometimes when I get like this, I’ll use my vibrator. It’s longer than my dildo, its quiet, it’s slimmer, and the vibrations are wonderful.
But other times, like tonight, I really just want to feel full. To feel the pain and pleasure that stretching my pussy comes with. Luckily, my dildo fills that spot pretty well.
I’m a virgin, so I’m not very well versed in being penetrated much. So my pussy is very tight, and it generally hurts when I fuck myself with something girthy. I also don’t get very wet on my own, so even with lube, I’m fairly tight. It’s less of a problem when I have a partner encouraging me, because I get way more aroused, but when I’m just solo, it’s a bit painful.
Not a problem though, because I can usually override the pain by rubbing my clit.
So, sometimes I have nights like tonight. I’m feeling very needy, and reeeeaaally craving some cock. I mean, I’m always craving it, I’m always craving the feeling of another person, pressing me up against the wall, or down on my mattress, or making me get on my knees to suck their cock. But it’s stronger than usual tonight.
So, I get my dildo out, and I start sucking it like it’s a lover that’s just asked me to make them feel good. I like to practice my gag reflex, so I can be good for any future partners, as well as the fact that I just love the idea of having someone’s cock in my mouth.
After I’ve properly covered the dildo in spit, using my tongue to lick all the areas I couldn’t get with it being in my mouth; I love up the dildo and just jerk it off for a minute or so. I really love feeling it in my hand, and imagining I’m pleasuring someone whose really enjoying themselves.
If you can’t tell, I really love the idea of making other people feel good.
And as much as I love the feeling of it in my hand, I don’t want the lube to dry so I eventually take my shorts off and slowly press it into my pussy.
I’m not sure if I mentioned this, but the dildo is fairly thick. It’s a regular-sized cock, but at about the middle, it gets fairly girthy. For someone whose never been fucked, this is somewhat of a draw back, because inserting it is painful. However, the reason why I’ve come to love this dildo so much, is because when I eventually get past that girthy part of the dick, it slims down more.