[M]arried guy (41), about to roll dice and reach out to a former hookup

So a couple years back, a girl I went to HS with (and fucked at a party once) popped up on my “people you might know” thing on FB. I’ll call her Anna for the sake of the story. I haven’t seen this girl in almost 20 years and we don’t really have any common friends. I stalked her profile and figured out she lives very close to me and is a single mom. She still looks good in her pics, slightly thicker around the hips, but in that sexy milf way. Until this point, I had hoped to just run into her by happenstance at some point at the grocery store or something, but no luck. I’ve decided tonight I’m going to shoot her a casual DM just saying hi and see how it goes.

As the title states, I’m married. And quite happily for the most part. But if you read my previous post, you’ll see that every so often I get an insatiable craving for strange- namely trashy, small-town types of girls. Now calling Anna “trashy” might be a bit of a stretch, but she definitely checks a lot of other boxes for me. She isn’t dumb, but she’s chronically naive, which I find incredibly hot. To the best of my knowledge, she’s never been your classic “slut”, so I can’t picture her out there throwing the pussy around to anyone, but I know she’s always had a crush on me and might still have a weak spot.

41 married male, addicted to trailer trash

I’m what most people would consider successful in life… 41, in excellent shape, great job, beautiful wife, house in the burbs, kids in private school. Despite all that, I can’t stop myself from seeking out slutty, white trash girls to cheat with. I’m chronically attracted to these types of women, but I only act on the attraction occasionally. I’m sure there’s some deep-seeded reason for why I’m like this- my parents divorced when I was about 9 and my parents were somewhat promiscuous after that. I know I saw and heard things I shouldn’t have at a young age. Now my mom wasn’t like a crackwhore or anything, just the small, blue-collar town single mom that would occasionally have some fun after her waitressing shifts and dated a few local barstools.

My everyday life is beyond stable. Marriage and sex life are great, but I’m naturally high-libido and need to cum multiple times a day. Usually between sex with my wife and jerking off, I’m reasonably satiated, but every now and then I just get an overwhelming urge to stick my dick in trailer trash. I’ll get on tinder or go to the dive-iest bar I can find and end up with some damaged slut with daddy issues and zero self esteem. (I just discovered the NSFW meth/drug subs and holy shit…)