I had just confessed to by boyfriend of 3 years that I had cheated on him with a common friend while he was visiting his sister out of state. We had both drunk a lot that night and we were both very emotional about it all, he was very upset and had spent a lot of night crying. He had passed out asleep I felt really guilty and couldn't fall asleep. In the middle of the night I woke him up and asked him if he wanted to have sex with me. He grabbed me and made me sit on him as he sucked on my nipples I then began to straddle him, I must admit I was very wet. He next flipped me on my back, placed his legs on my shoulders and penetrated me. He thrusted me deep and hard, no one else has ever fucked me that hard before, he groaned like an animal pushing deep inside of me until he came. He then fell asleep but woke up at least 3 times that night and proceeded to fuck me hard dumping his cum inside of me each time (something he had never done before, I was glad that I was on the pill). The last time he fucked me doggy, he pushed my face with his foot and made me suck his toe which he had never done before. I didn't enjoy it but I also never stopped him or said anything to him even though I have a safe word (we had played out some kinky fantasies before). I feel somewhat used after this, was his behavior normal? Wouldn't he want to be gentle to make me feel safe with him?