[F] I am a broken beta cuckQueen to my alpha roommate

So if you read my story about how my first Bf ended up cheating on me with my close friend and roommate.. and I acted as if I didn’t know because I didn’t wanna loose her nor him and be alone …

But after years with being friends with that girl. I just realized that she does it on purpose . She knows she’s better and she enjoys it . Cause that ex was a loser that girl like her would never fuck but she did it cause he was dating me . She did it to show she’s superior to me … she would even start hitting on men that I would be talking to so again she shows how better she is .. it’s like she got off to being superior to me and to showing off that I am nothing compared to her .. we are still friends and I never had the courage to confront her ever .. I see her fuxking my crush . She just bring them home after I tell her I have a crush on them . And just takes them to her room and fuxk them hard and loud . And as always I end up masturbating imagining i was her like the loser I am…

[F] I am a broken beta cuck …

So if you read my story about how my first Bf ended up cheating on me with my close friend and roommate.. and I acted as if I didn’t know because I didn’t wanna loose her nor him and be alone …

But after years with being friends with that girl. I just realized that she does it on purpose . She knows she’s better and she enjoys it . Cause that ex was a loser that girl like her would never fuck but she did it cause he was dating me . She did it to show she’s superior to me … she would even start hitting on men that I would be talking to so again she shows how better she is .. it’s like she got off to being superior to me and to showing off that I am nothing compared to her .. we are still friends and I never had the courage to confront her ever .. I see her fuxking my crush . She just bring them home after I tell her I have a crush on them . And just takes them to her room and fuxk them hard and loud . And as always I end up masturbating imagining i was her like the loser I am…

[F] – I lost my virginity at 18 on a car during prom

I was a shy awkward girl , unattractive to guys and I was lonely… so I had no friends really but guys would come up to me and let me talk to them only if I jerked them off during it .. so that happened often with the guys cause I had very low self esteem and I was happy that hot guys were with me for few minutes so I just jerked them off often .

Until prom, I went without a date spent the night with many drunk guys coming up to me telling me to follow them so I can jerk them off or suck them off . But that’s it I would get a guys attention until he cums then he leaves and I end up alone in there until another guy try the same thing..