I [F]25 cheated on my boyfriend with 2 black man because that I want have guilt for something I remember since I didn’t remember the first time

I moved to United States from India for my college. I had a boyfriend back in home. We were in a relationship for 3 years when I moved to US. During my freshman year, one of my classmate, Melinda, invited me to join her in a house of her friend. I pretty bored that night so I tagged along with her. In that party Melinda her friends made me drink so much.

When I woke up, I had a huge hangover. I don’t remember anything. I realised it was not my place and I should’ve slept there. When I look around, I was shocked. I was naked in the bed with couple of men and Melinda. I tried to woke her up but couldn’t. So I got dressed and ran from there. I had so much guilt for cheating on my boyfriend. I didn’t know what to do. In the evening, I noticed that my necklace my boyfriend gave me for valentines day. It was so precious to me. I decided to go back the place to get it.